Happy Yule!

My parents laid off the booze long enough to compromise with school. So, I am taking classes in the Spring but not as many as i had hoped but that is isn't because of financial issues but because it is a gradual incline of cases I have to take with one class before the next or qualify for the next level. So far, i am taking Video Art, Experimental 3D, and Postmodernism in the Visual Arts.

I am making the most of my career towards animation. I am practicing with GIFs and working at improving more digital media and trying to make the most of what I can do as an Animation student to add to my portfolio. Here is an image I did for yule. it can also correspond with X-mas and Winter, obviously.

I named the girl Xtal, which is an abbreviation for Crystal i use in text-messaging. She is a Witch of the Storm. The Ice Princess of the Winter Skies. To name a few titles. In my mind, I had intended on creating her to harness the power of the snowflake sand coming from her hand. However, in the midst of creating the animation GIF, I was more focused on getting it to work. The process, if you will. I was working on how to put two different GIFs together as one.

Little did i know, that it isn't a matter of layering two different files on top of one another, because Photoshop doesn't allow you to upload a GIF only to create them. So, what I did was: As I was working on the glow from the lantern glows and added them them to my GIF of the snowflakes falling and every four layers of the snowflakes, I added a glow. And the snowflakes came from a video I brought into Photoshop and made the frames into layers and limited them by 10 and within a certain selection.

Here is an example: 

So, Merry Yule and X-mas to everyone! I support them both and celebrate X-mas more as a tradition than a religious holiday. And I celebrate Yule because I believe in Pagan traditions and beliefs. I love everything about Yule. It's history, it's traditions that most Christians use today in Christmas, it's colors, it's elements, its objects, and its symbolic metaphors of objects and traditions. It's a beautiful holiday that starts around the Winter Solstice (Dec 21st) and 21 happens to be my favorite and lucky number. It seems to follow me every where like a curse. 

Good-bye Education...

Well, I guess I can kiss my entire education career good-bye. My parents obviously don't give a fuck about the last 6 six classes I have left before I graduate because the fees I have to pay for the school is outrageous. There are fees on there I can't control because of what my ID card is used for and they are throwing a big fit about it costing so much. Well, college is not like what is was like when they were little. Gas did not cost 19 cents a gallon. And I can't afford to pay for a tank of gas every week just to make up and down the highway, a dangerous highway with a car that has been falling apart and been needing maintenance for months now for who knows what, and apparently I might have to do that because they are going to kick me out of the dorm and force me to commute for good. Well, why not just not go to school at all and be college drop outs like they were. People who didn't really go to college and neither did my fucking brother. Do they really want me to head down that road where I could possibly be a fuck disappoint like he is?

The payment for classes is due tomorrow and forget I even mention it after they have fucking drank their asses off of whiskey. I don't know why they drink every fucking night. I don't find it healthy especially for their mood swings and mindsets. They are so far up their own asses it isn't even funny. They think that their days are the good ol' days and that life should be just like it was during their time. Well, things change and the future isn't cheap. 20 dollars may have been a crapload of money in their time but now it is worth nothing compared to what things cost nowadays. Things are not as cheap as they were and they need to fucking accept that.

So, who knows if I am going to come back next Spring at all for college. Who fucking knows. Apparently my dad will handle it but why is my mom in such a bitchy mood lately? She acts as if the whole world is against her and that no one cares. Well, she needs to stop drinking at night and lay off the smokes, she is just a bitch. A short, little bitch who thinks the government is controlling this nation, they are outlawing everything now or putting restrictions on them, that no one gives a damn in this house, and that everyone else is at fault. She is such a drama queen. The victim in everything around her and never willing to accept and open-minded view, let alone agree on things other people consider. She is more close-minded than I gave her credit for. I thought she was cool with some libertarian ideals and okay with accepting others of different race and orientations, but things like gender equality with there being more than just male and female is confusing and new and something she doesn't understand. Well, she needs to accept that things are never going to be up to her expectations and it isn't always a bad thing. That things are going to change and we need to accept them. She can't be stubborn all the time. Horoscopes said that she and I need to watch out for each other. We are so far opposite it isn't even funny.

Program

I MADE IT INTO MY MAJOR'S PROGRAM!

I passed the portfolio review and now an official New Media Art Student. I am looking towards actual classes toward my major and requesting permission numbers to take them for the Spring. I have roughly 6 classes left before I graduate and I have already been looking for where to apply towards Animation and within apartments nearby the studios of my choice. I'm happy about starting my major but now considering it is the break, I am looking towards relaxing, drawing, family time, the holidays, and much more. I still wish I could find my cat but so far, things haven't been too bad. Just wish for the best.

Here's hoping! <3