WTF!?

I must really fail at Video Art. Especially if I have to strap it to my body and make something out of it. It's too hard dealing with this. I really wish we had more time to work on it and I mean learning 2 weeks in advance how to work in Final Cut Pro and been given some leniency as to how we are suppose to put this together. I am not even sure if I can download a free version of final cut pro onto my laptop. It seems like the only chance I have is to go to the classroom tomorrow when it is free to use and just use the computers while in there alone. That is the best I can do.

I have a painting due tomorrow that I am almost done with. After dinner tonight, I will work more on it and finish it tonight and get there early so I can take it off of the board, but then we have another painting to do that I can't really start on right now because my board is already in use. Now I know what you are going to say. Just flip the darn thing. Well, I can't. my board is not balanced and it curves in on the side I am using now which means the other side is curved like a small little hill which in water color would be hard to work on due to gravity in the corners. And I still need to stretch the paper before I work on it. I keep hurting myself with the staple gun so I either need to be more careful and aware of which end is the staple area and be careful. I guess I have two options. Try and finish this one by the end of the day, meaning in the next two to four hours. Go to the art building and remove it from the board even though the cart is not available....shit....and then stretch a new piece of paper and try and switch them out....which is hard and impossible now that I think about it. I need pliers and screw drive ASAP! Ugh why did she throw this completely new assignment onto us while we were still and probably just starting to work on the current one? I hope she gives us more time then it being due Thursday.

This is ridiculous.....I may just quit...I am getting too hurt, too frustrated, and too upset to even work period! I am having an emotional meltdown with all of the assignments piled up on me and the lack of time I have to provide for each one. I need either more supplies...again....or more time to work on shit. This is exhausting...I can't do work because I am either already working on something else or in no physical shape to work at all like with my back and my finger being stapled. I am having such bad luck and it isn't even funny. I am starting to hate these classes only because the timeframe we have for them are way to close together and on the same days. Not to mention, I don't have all the supplies I need because I am so use to just going there and finishing it up with the supplies there. Not to mention distances and bus schedules...UGH!!!

I usually don't complain with how much I have to do or about timeframes and all that jazz, but it is really affecting me lately...I just want to die right now I am not even joking... I am sick and tired of due dates being so cramped together and with no real guidelines. The teachers aren't clear about what is due when or I can't hear them well enough or understand them to really know when they are referring to. Also, it is not easy, Watercolor and New Media. I am stuck right now with what to do, when to do it, where to do it, how to do it, and what needs to be done. I am so stressed right now I just want a cat to cuddle and a friend to talk to.....sigh....